idk i cant take it anymore . Im living in my sadness my past. I cant move on without completing myself . I try and try but failure is my destiny. I wish to end this pathetic life hut i have to learnt it before i leave . I should be grateful but i feel so empty hmm im just so insecure to the max . I have nobody ... Nobody . Im sad as always but im gonna shine. I lost my light but im gonna glow. I lost myself again ... maybe i become more strong but maybe i just die. mentally hurt physically bleed , i m a living corps trying to find my long lost soul . Maybe i kill myself but km not that stupid . I should try to hold back my tears n emotion . Try to move is my main purpose. Ouh ...